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i viewed back the file (msn chat log), i realized that i knew her already more than a year... and now, my feeling is like very uncomfortable... feel like shouting but cant shout out... this kind of feeling is toughly hard to express out... no ppl will know how is it... only me myself... recently i less contact with her d... no msn... no email... no sms... no phone call also... when i opened msn chat log which recorded down all the past conversations through msn, i found that last time when we were just freshly knowing each other, we were super active in chatting every night... we were damn crazy chatting every night... ever night around 12.30 we would b waiting each other in msn... if couldnt see the partner, we would miss call the other to online... many times we chatted till 4am++... at first it was very very crazy to us... but it also became normal to us at the end...that time we were like demanding ppl to chat with... i needed her to chat with me and she needed me to chat with her... so that was why we chatted always last time... and now i review back, i find that now she no needs me to chat with her, talk to her d... the time we spend for connecting is getting lesser and lesser... what i know is time will fade everything... after a longer period has overed, maybe we may forget each other... we started from a very very simple and common and nonsense conversation until the climax we told each other our personal problems which we might not tell other ppl either parents, siblings or friends... at first we chatted from msn... then through mobile device (sms and call)... it was so new and ridiculous to me and i had never thought of doing like this... now i really really miss the moment we chat like that... now i feel so sad that we never chat much among us... haiz... some how i must be gratful to what i have... i must appreciate it... i must also thank God... thank God for giving this good opportunity to know her... thank you for bringing me to her... thank God for giving me all these... for me, she is a very very special girl... special girl, special feeling...