Can I?Should I?

I was confused of the way I behaved yesterday...Is it necessary for me to behave that way?
I am wondering what else I can feel and do to change the awkward situation...
I am used to be a very friendly and amusing guy.
I was trying my best to behave friendly...
LOL..trying...ya...something that changed my mind..my mind to behave friendly to someone.
That is why I have to force my mind...But I am not used to force myself..that was why I failed to be like that...
I am sorry and actually I found nothing more to talk to you...
The things and minds have been changed...thank God for that...
I hope that will be a day...We can talk properly and have an ideal fellowship.