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I have been tore apart from inspiration for a few weeks.
For these few weeks, I have nothing to write. I just feel that life is unfair. We are given chance to dream yet we will never see it becoming true. We are given chance to live yet we will hardly see we are living with what we want. Just like a physical student that will never get pharmacy course. Just like a boy seeing the girl he loves married other. Just like a child that wishes to give his mom a big house but couldn't. What then life?
We live, we breathe but we couldn't get what we want.
Is it?
Or actually we have what we want, just we never appreciate but hope for more. The physical student might have chance to be a great engineer. The boy might meets another girl that really loves him. The child is lucky enough to be with his mother regardless those family that had been separated by war. What is actually important? To be a pharmacist, to be with the one you love or to have a big house? Or, to be chosen by Christ as one of His servant?
No matter how unfair I feel about life, I started to notice that I SHOULD be damn grateful that I live in God's plan. He sees what we cannot see. Ours, are limited, to instant pleasure, to sudden wealth, to wasteful enjoyment.
Instead of dreaming, we pray for what we want in life, we become dependent on deo volente. Sometimes we feel that's unfair, but we will never know what take place next step. What more we want if 2012 really hits? Of course, it's not that soon, but live for Lord and we find happiness.